the starting line.

I am 23 and feel old. Not old as in "Wow, I've lived!"- but rather "I'm turning 24 this year, which might as well be 25,  which is OMG-MY-20s-ARE-BASICALLY-OVER, 30 is just around the corner which is like when most people have kids, which is basically an instant 25 lbs and a fast forward to 50, which is like AGH!!! 50!!!" "I'm pretty much 50!!" 

I guess at this point in my life,  where I'm too old to really be classified in the "young and airy with free abandon" category but too young to actually complain about my age, I'm finding myself wading through this sort of middle ground. I recently graduated college and dove into the corporate world, and I'm trying to swim through financial responsibility, career pressures, and the 405. 

So while I've adopted the tell-tale signs of a cat-lady spinster (like going to bed by 9pm most nights and having seen pretty much EVERY House Hunters episode), I'm also still consumed by things that "a young and airy with free abandon"-type would consider the norm. But as a newly-minted "20-something Young Adult" befit with the appropriate burdens  responsibilities I'm realizing most of my main obsessions are a bit "inappropriate." 

Like dropping $100 almost every time I'm in CVS because I.can't.resist. this new Essie color, or I.have.to try this mascara and how.cute. is this lip gloss thing. Or of course eating too much until I have to prop myself upright. Or online shopping like I'm on Minute to Win It except it's been three hours and I have 6 carts open. Or wearing a full face of "going out makeup" to the office at 8am (and then 10 hours later wondering why my lashes look like insect legs and my face feels like its literally sliding off and I overall look like a morning-after nightmare).

And like I even have to come outright and admit my main guilty pleasure is spending an absurd amount of time...daily...on Pinterest.

I have come across so many fashion/beauty blogs that I am majorly obsessed with- but one thing I have to say about all of them (all my favs anyways) is that they are pretty much 100% bloggers only. Like, I am convinced they don't  have conventional 9-5 jobs. Which on the one hand is how they are able to be so "blog present," and successful (like how would you expect someone to crank out a "flawless face" foundation tutorial with 5am or 9pm lighting?" Not. A. Thing. That stuff is happening between the prime hours of 10 am and 4 pm), but on the other hand it's so discouraging to me. I scroll through so many great outfits and awesome curling techniques and must-favs, and I think, "How are these girls cranking out so many youtube tutorials (those things are time consuming to make and do all the takes and then edit and then etc...) and who the heck is their photo slave (and where can I get one)??" Point is: totally different (and for me unrealistic) lifestyle. Obviously it would be my dreammm to get up on the reg whenever I wanted, go for a great morning workout, blend a killer spinach smoothie or do a juice, shower, do whatever, and then sit down to do my hair and make-up for 3 hours....and THEN start my day. But where are the blogs by girls who are climbing that corporate ladder, who love Excel and redlining documents just as much as good living room decor, a gel mani,  and Viktor & Rolf perfume?? 

So, as I am embarking into the deeper waters of my 20s (basically my 50s!) I 1) hope to really start gaining some of the wisdom I expected myself to have more of at this age because ultimately my life goals include being incessantly successful and administratively busy while simultaneously living a life of luxury and leisure, i.e. lounging in skivvies while making million dollar deals from my iPad, please see above. . .but 2) I will no doubt carry some of my younger quirks (issues really) with me forever. But, that being said, this blog is here to map out my love affairs with the ridiculous, present a stage for my flavor-of-the-weeks (be it make-up favs or Microsoft office tricks) and perhaps even quell my obsessions with the absurd and dated.